Hey,
It's been a let's say.... insightful day. Well in order to get to that , I have to tell about what kind of mood I was this morning(although that doesn't have much to do with it, I still want to talk about it). I was really happy for three reasons. (1.) I counted my blessings. When I think of wht God has done in my life, I have no reason to be
depressed. in one year, I got several great friends, My Dad met and married the love of his life (besides God), Debbie, my new step-mom as of August 31, 2002. I gained three new step-siblings who I absolutely love, I had my first boyfriend(not necessarily a good thing, but definately a learning experience), and I have a warm and caring church that I'm a part of. (2.) The second reason was that I get to see my friend again (3.) She was bringing me Jelly-Belly's, my all-time most favorite candy/food.
Well anyway, I was very hyper until I got to second hour. there I found out that my friend, let's call this person ABC was depressed(and this person is rarely depressed.)
I also found out why ABC was depressed. the person before living here lived in another state and had a certain special friend there. ABC tried to keep her out of trouble when she was drunk and having problems. Basically, ABC tried to keep her alive. One of the reasons that ABC is here in the first place is because the courts ordered ABC to live with ABC's dad.(I don't know why). Anyway,the girl called ABC a couple nights ago asking if ABC was coming back. ABC said no. Well last night, the girl commited suicide and ABC thinks it's their fault never mind that they are miles apart from the other person. ABC is carrying the guilt of a suicide that isn't ABC's fault. The thing is, thatit isn't their fault, and ABC had no one to rely on for strength. ABC wants to solve all the world's problems while leaning on their self as much as possible. ABC is a Christian which is good because,ABC understands what I mean when I say that they CAN rely on God. I had a hard time convinsing the person that their feelings and emotions ARE legitimate and that ABC doesn't have to be made of steel. More later
Dani