Hey,
Dani here. As I beleive I've said before, what I have written last week isn't nessasarily
how I feel now. I'm starting to get over Derek. I know that that will probably never amount to anything, so why waste time and emotions over him. I've been starting to think like this for a while, but haven't said anything since I knew I still have feelings for him, it's completly obvious, and I don't like appearing as if my emotions sway like the wind, drifting to one interest to another. I'm not like that, but I don't tend to say things pretaining to my heart without thinking it over, and even then, I'm still not sure. It will take some time, but I'm going to try my hardest to get over him. I'm on my way, but definetly not even close yet.
Just when I think that I have everything figured out, there's a new twist to the plot of life.
In geometry, I sit in a group of four: Allison, Brandon, Ashley(Brandon's girlfriend), and me. Brandon and I have taken up with having written discussions, mainly about nothing in specific. Well lately, our discussions have turned more serious. Today, Brandon's girlfriend wasn't here. He started complementing me telling me I was beautiful(which I'm not used to that considering Dad is the only one to say things like that to me, but then again he's supposed to) which was of course flustering me and making me blush(which seemed to encourge him more) which flustered me more. I had asked him why he was saying that stuff and he just came up with a couple of very cryptic statements. He said something about a small certain lack of trust between his girlfriend and him.(I wonder why. He is cute and he's nice to all girls)
he said he was going to wait and see if it grows or diminishes. It was on the tip of my tounge to ask if he was using me to test the waters(but then again, she wasn't here. That doesn't bode well for what type of character he has). He also said he wasn't telling why. It is very possible that I am overeacting and it will blow over tomorrow. Or he was playing with my mind. If that's the case, he's very successful at it.(whydo I feel like I am deluding myself as usual? I'm very good at that). I will wait and see tomorrow. The problem is, I think I'm starting to like him. He HAS a girlfriend!
He had asked me why I alwys blush or smile when he is in proximity(I didn't realise I was). He seems to be a great person, but I'm not totally sure. He says he's a Christian and he is the first guy I've talked to who actually understands what I'm saying when I'm talking about Christianity. He doesn't swear very much, has a great sence of humor, is intelligent, isn't obsessed with sports(even though he does play football), doesn't seem to be oblivious,and treats females right (chilvilrous). I don't know him well enough, but that could be remedied. Time will tell.
Dani
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